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Wednesday, November 04, 2009
on hiatus for another.... three weeks? WELL.. NOT FROM MUGGING!! okay.. i am back for a very short update.. my blog's dead! that is like really rare of me to leave it lying around just like that.. anyway, seriously.. i do not have much to update.. other than my amazing yet regretful experience at Singout 09' not that I din gain anything from it.. but i wasted a lot of my time and effort on it when i should have focused on the crisis of my life.. MY GCE' A LEVELS well.. i really took the wrong step this time and went for PASSION over necessity... and my studies' are really screwed up now.. i had the worst grades of my life for PRELIMS, my final school curriculum examinations.. I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NEXT THREE WEEKS TO BE OVER!!! anyway, i am going bald on the 26th april.. haha long time awayyyyyyyyy.... i have so many things to do and accomplish during my long break!! sing work (any lobangs?) possibly.. learn the piano? and yea.. holiday trips.. (okay i can't think of anything else, what an irony! i was thinking about the extensive list i would want to do and will be doing during my longggg-term break) i have drifted away from sooo many people.. my family inclusive.. my younger bro tells me BYE when i head to my room now.. its like i am entering into another world from the domestic life at home and it is seen through the innocent eyes of this little bro of mine, which makes the realism even more true and yet.. harsh.. okay the next time i am here.. i will be blogging about SINGOUT 09' which is like.... months late? well.. i have got to share this experience of mine! BYE FOR NOW... OH! MOST IMPORTANTLY!! i sincerely pray and hope that all of you can PRAY for me that i will be able to do well.. PLEASE!!!!! i am in a terrible need for a miracle now.. i have never felt that desperate and worried for my academics.. i don't aim for straight a's now.. i just want satisfactory results... PLEASE!! SOMEONE HELP ME!!! last time i am doing this.. BUT PLEASE I NEED SOMEONE TO SAVE ME FROM THIS CRISIS!!!!! wish me all the best and pray for me yea?? and my folks.. do take care! Monday, September 21, 2009
relieving the memories.. up till today, i am still able to recall all my previous relationships.. vividly remembering how much i have cherished them.. but do all of you still do? or have all of you completely lost this piece of memory? perhaps.. i was just a fleeting cloud, providing the light showers for you, this tall tree.. and after i am done, giving you all that i ever could, i will just have to drift away.. and you, will have to then simply wait for another fleeting cloud.. but then again.. this cloud chose by itself, to to be blown away by the winds of its own temperament.. i can only wish you all the very best, since we are all hardly in any contact anymore.. but it had definitely been one of my greatest pleasures knowing all of you.. Sunday, August 23, 2009
Hanabi Japanese Restaurant probably one of the best meals coming from Japanese cuisine, that I have ever had.. The menu was EXTENSIVE.. 100 over dishes, and we only ordered like around 30 odd? anyway, Prelims' approaching in about 2 weeks, with GP while the rest will fall after the September Holidays.. for the entire year, I have been complaining about not having the motivation, not putting in as much effort as before.. right till today.. it still occurs to me that I am still not on the momentum, everyone is mugging so much harder than me.. maybe.. I have long lost the confidence in my studies, knowing that I have no chance of making it.. still got to give it a try.. I need to find the miracle myself.. it is really one of those things that I want.. sooo badly knowing that I am in a vital crisis that determines my future and the path ahead of me... sometimes, thinking of how I am going to tremble in the examination hall when I am exactly clueless, really sends chills down my spine.. and the frustration... of not working hard, not being able to finding how highly motivated I was as a student in the past.. anyway, Dad's back.. he's on hiatus from work so he's going to be at home for like weeks or months.. for the past few days, I've been like gobbling down damnnnn good food, NOT HEALTHY.. drifting apart from soo many people.. aargh Sunday, August 16, 2009
Dinner at Curry Favor@ Velocity 9th August 2009 Saturday, August 01, 2009
Singout 09' Showcase @ Tampinese Mall Open Plaza 7th June 2009 ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Singout 09' Semi-Finals 28th June 2009 here are a month's (probably two) due worth of pics.. anyway, for those who are not aware of it; I have been participating in a competition, organised by Music Story (and took part in its management process, right till after the Quarter Finals Round) from March 09' and.. ITS GOING TO END IN EXACTLY 1 WEEK!! this competition has been taking its toll on me, affecting my studies, affecting my daily lifestyle, affecting my sleep, affecting my mood and temper, affecting my time with my family and friends, affecting this... affecting that... its been very, very, extremely demanding.. and I kind of regret joining it, in the first place, especially when I am having my GCE A' Levels this year.. Well.. its the next competition I joined ever since Teenage Icon 07', alongside with VJC Musicfest 09'.. and I guess I joined it cos' of my desire to perform on stage again, since I really miss the feeling of performing. I have attained that feeling now, and I can't say that I have totally lost all my nerves on stage, and moreover, I am also not as good as most singers and performers out there. and.. I've got some unconstructive criticism here.. just hope to end the competition soon.. really soon.. then I'm going on hiatus.. just like the post-period of Teenage Icon 07', I reckon' I'm going to miss the feeling once again, in the future.. but yea.. not so soon.. I'm really all worn out not going to think too much, having the luck to be in the top 12 admist of so many great competitors of Singout 09' is really good enough for me; when I have long predicted that I will never make it pass the Semi-Finals round.. these few weeks of stress has been killing me.. 7 more days.. let's end it, once and for all.. I am not going to care anymore, I am fcuking tired Anyone who wishes to support me for my participation in Singout 09' Grand Finals, please contact me or get them personally from Music Story (76 Neil Road).. Singout 09' Grand Finals 8th August 2009 5.30pm DBS Auditorium tickets are priced at 15 dollars each seats are only left with those from the upper gallery anyway, wish me luck, lend me your support- morally or not, pray for me that I can do my best Thursday, July 30, 2009
my performance is no where.. NO WHERE near half-perfect.. screwed... damn screwed.. Sunday, July 26, 2009
fcuked up with myself Emotionally Worn Out i have soo many things to worry about soo much that i feel extrememly stressed out.. and the only solution i found? the ability to manipulate time.. if only i had 48 hours a day, 12 hours for school work 8 hours of singing and practising 12 hours for family and friends 8 hours of sleep 8 hours of doing anything else i have so many things to do so many liabilities to be committed to so many people to catch up with i feel... worn out, emotionally.. worrying about this and being troubled over that I regret joining Singout 09' too much input of time, effort and money facing unconstructive criticism handling the pressure not wanting to be under-estimated wanting to give it all if only i could turn back time.. i would not have to try to find back the momentum of studying now.. its been a long search and i'm damn - about it.. im pathetic pathetic pathetic i need to catch up with so many people i need to, i need to, i need to.. i really treasure my friends and i despise friends to drift apart.. screw my life, screw it.. i wanna leave this place.. for good SingOut in 13 days prelims in 1 and a half months A' Levels in 3 and a half months |
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